So I changed the name of my blog. Things got crazy today after my last post. He got a phone call... They aren't sure if he's going anymore. Paperwork, budgets, etc made it hard for them to say for sure if he's still deploying. They won't know for a few days. The emotional rollercoaster this has turned out to be is super intense. He could be going any day and we probably won't know until a couple days or the day before. Or he's not going at all. He's super disappointed. I feel bad but I am a little happy I at least get a few more days with him.
I was looking forward to getting a chance to be completely independent. I was looking forward to our reuniting after he got home. I feel like it would be like right after we started dating. This is crazyyy. Ugh. Hope we find out soon.
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Two Days...
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Ugh. He leaves on Thursdayyyy.
How did we get here?? Where did the time go?? And jeezzz, we have a ton to do still. I have class tonight and work tomorrow and I don't want to go. For a ton of reasons. I wanna be here every second he has left at home. I also need a minute to take care of all the things we have to do. He's literally no help sometimes. Picked up his nephew from preschool early today so we're watching Spongebob. While, my incredibly annoying boyfriend is passed out on the couch. Helloooooooo, you have packing. You have phone calls. You have a million things to do. Wake up!
I can't be mad at him though. And I can't bring myself to wake him up either. I just don't want to waste time nagging him. Plus, nagging never helps. Just makes people mad at each other.
Our apartment is a total disaster. But that's my project for Thursday after he leaves to keep myself busy. We still don't know what time he's leaving though.
I'm excited for tomorrow because we have date plans. But I'm dreading it too because it's my last full day with him before he leaves.
Ughh. The emotional turmoil is like, too much. I'm so in and out of life right now... it's crazy.
How did we get here?? Where did the time go?? And jeezzz, we have a ton to do still. I have class tonight and work tomorrow and I don't want to go. For a ton of reasons. I wanna be here every second he has left at home. I also need a minute to take care of all the things we have to do. He's literally no help sometimes. Picked up his nephew from preschool early today so we're watching Spongebob. While, my incredibly annoying boyfriend is passed out on the couch. Helloooooooo, you have packing. You have phone calls. You have a million things to do. Wake up!
I can't be mad at him though. And I can't bring myself to wake him up either. I just don't want to waste time nagging him. Plus, nagging never helps. Just makes people mad at each other.
Our apartment is a total disaster. But that's my project for Thursday after he leaves to keep myself busy. We still don't know what time he's leaving though.
I'm excited for tomorrow because we have date plans. But I'm dreading it too because it's my last full day with him before he leaves.
Ughh. The emotional turmoil is like, too much. I'm so in and out of life right now... it's crazy.
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